Thursday, November 19, 2009

Round 2

The 2nd round of chemo has gone better, but it's still not easy. I was fine for the first few days, but on Sunday night that changed. I was sick all night. We were getting ready to go back to the hospital again and I improved a bit. Well, I wasn't throwing up. It's Thursday now and I'm pretty much in bed all day. This is still better than the 1st round. Hopefully my condition improves again next round.

Being sick for so long can really take it's toll. Optimism fades, faith is shaken. I get quite discouraged at times. I worry about the future. What will I do when I've recovered from this? I miss my kids that are in California. It's one thing to think about these things and have faith in God's plan at the moment. It's a whole new thing to lay sick in bed enduring cancer for months and still say "God, your will be done."